finally.

finally you were back by my side, smiling.
and of course i was the only one who could touch you and i was bawling.
screaming about how much i'd missed you.

and your mother was always so angry at me,
but she was like splenda the way she faked sweetness.
i could hear her thoughts, pleading to me.
"he's my boy, let him go, he's my boy"

i didn't make you talk to me, i just made you hug me.
and that was enough before you left me for the second time.

kiss me, scratch me, love me, strangle me.

truth is colder than blind sun-kissed bliss.

i never wanted to have to learn.

but leaving it up to the abuser is what i do best.

hurt me.